Breathing

I'm still breathing... Have tried hard to refocus myself the past few months. I've been a good girl lately and have had very few moments of weakness. I haven't acted on any of my normal impulses. We are currently getting ready to make a major move up north. We weren't ready to move seeing how we had just bought a new home. However, we are sooooo excited to get the fuck out of this tiny backwoods deep south town! Best of all, we will be moving to a major central US city. My son is ready to leave this town too. He can't wait to see snow this winter. He is six years old and has never seen snow. I'm looking forward to helping him make his first snowman. My main concern about moving so far from our home state was being so far from my sister. However, things have changed in her life too and she has decided to move with us. Wow, I we will be able to have a baby sitter!!! We haven't had one of those in three years! Husband is in the new city now getting some prep work done. He keeps telling me about all the fun things we can do when we get there. I'm really hoping that being in a city and having a baby sitter might help give our relationship that spark we so desperately need. I'm trying to stay positive... Wish me luck!